I am really going through a band aid ripping effect with spirituality right now.
I have come to see all the places we can hide in false hopes, numbed feelings and unstable healing modalities just to ignore the truth of our lives and the power of our feelings.
Many of us are never taught how to cope with feelings and even less of us are prepared for what life has in store for us. Living in this world means being open to painful experiences. We hear lots of talk about keeping our hearts open and loving people but many of us close our hearts at a very young age due to trauma.
The rest of our lives we struggle with our weight, with depression in the form of laziness and excessive media exposure, drug/alcohol/sex/gambling/other addictions, co-dependence in the form of marriage, spirituality and religion, and now the new agers have brought wholistic health to the mainstream and along with it all the charlatans that just regenerate other peoples programs with little experience.
All these avenues either masking the feelings or overreacting new ones. Many people struggle to just be and accept life on lifes terms.
There are times in our lives that we truly have no exciting feelings and it just is what it is, yet we feel abnormal so we rush out to a program or a spirituality that will some how lift our spirits. Other times we are surely depressed but refuse to make the necessary changes in our lives that our bodies are demanding of us, so we seek to numb out.
The reasons we come to these places to hide are all for the same reason really. We dont like our lives, they are not living up to our expectations and we have lost gratitude for the magnitude of our humanity. This is why churches are on every corner... to help people find those purposes.
I would like to bring a new option forth... how about the church of self? How about finding a new truth within yourself. Millions of people are getting it just by hitting the gym daily. Not to become a new place to hide but to get in touch with your own body, with your own senses. to open yourself up to your own intuition.
Eating well for your self, whatever that looks like and placing your attention on your own body will bring you into a new alignment. Through this alignment you might begin to notice how much you were hiding in a program of thoughts that kept you trapped.
Hope is a dangerous one and the one I am coming out of right now. Hope creates illusions that when taken to far begin to alienate you from the world for which you must function in. When a spirituality or modality begins to isolate you then there is a hiding going on and one will get lost in the grip of self righteousness and thats never a pretty place to be. Co-dependents love this place for they can escape decision making and taking responsibility for themselves.
I feel like I am finally stepping out of that place where I need to hide from the world. Now when I say that I mean, fully showing up for the world... heart open and losing the fear to be hurt and losing an even deeper fear of repeating the past. I really believe we can live without patterns in our lives that we can truly just live without the constant repeating pain nor the hiding from it either.
We do not need to re-create our past and we do not need to keep our heart on a love lock down.
Of course we must walk through it first and for some that will be a seven year cycle, but once you have moved through it, the freedom on the other side is karmic release. I feel that as the millennials age we lose this dualistic nature and are being moved into a more loving and accepting place where people dont have to hide in order to feel safe.
We all speak about peace but all we have done is hide ourselves from anything not pleasant.... its time to fight the final war. The one raging inside you. Time to face your truth and step out of it.
Its time to just live. Go to the gym, eat well, pay your bills, take care of your responsibilities. Then you will feel a passion build inside you.... follow it. That is your truth. Look for the good in your life and other people and this is what you will find. Basics. Keep it simple. Keep it basic. The rest will take care of itself.