I have been distracted from my weekly readings because my life flows in directions I can never plan for in my daily world. And thats the Goddess honest truth. How does one marry a free spirit who needs routine to be disciplined in a world of structure but full of freaking chaos?
I read this in an email today:
The gapThere's a gap between where you are and where you want to be.
Many gaps, in fact, but imagine just one of them.
That gap--is it fuel? Are you using it like a vacuum, to pull you along, to inspire you to find new methods, to dance with the fear?
Or is it more like a moat, a forbidding space between you and the future?
Posted by Seth Godin on January 21, 2018
..... This email brought me back to the spiritual me that lives on my own time clock and gets things done way better, however, to then marry that clock with the worlds has been challenging to say the least. I have goals and dreams. That need discipline and focused attention. How can I reach my dreams when I cannot even achieve my weekly goals? This is when my dreams look like a far off future across a great divide.
Living in a world of chaos in a calculated way is the way to lesson that gap between our dreams and our reality. Why does it seem like its so hard though. I do move in a vacuum like fashion with so much fun and laughter in my life. I allow inspiration to take me and thus my life leading two jobs, taking college courses and raising a trans gender son.
No shortage of inspiration just all the shortage of discipline.
I am sure when i get to the reading this week I will not be surprised to see some crazy making has ensued by not even recognizing what the cards are saying or a taunting of my troubling lesson. I guess we shall see. From what I am seeing and experiencing in the outside world we have all had some troubling lessons this week. A get stronger week, that's all!