I woke up this morning already fit to be tied. How is that gonna make for a good day, I ask you?
Haven't even opened my eyes and already I am seething in anger. I don't even know what I am angry about. i run a check list through my head.
I didn't lose as much weight at my Jenny Appointment last night as I had hoped, but I am not shocked I haven't been close on plan all week, so really I cant be mad about that can I?
I am still only attracting men that are unavailable to me, which is a sore spot for my heart but this isn't new and astounding information, so it cant be whats causing me to seethe at 8am before my feet even hit the floor.
I do feel tired and lonely, like my life is one constant battle after another with little reward in between.... but even as I think the thought, my higher self taps me on the shoulder and gently says.... ummm excuse me missy you have a new bestie that warms your heart and already is madly in love with you, something you have asked for.... someone to like you as much as you like yourself.... and two daughters that are changing the world simply by the personal choices they are making.... so really missy you are being rewarded daily. So really I cannot be angry about feeling lonely thats my own doing because of my hang up on the Lion, whom doesn't want me.
And so before my feet hitting the floor I concede defeat to my warring heart over an unfulfilled wish, a lost dream, and fantasy killed with a slow poison.
True to the fashion of feelings and what I seen as the law of attraction, every encounter I have after being awake is one of perceived personal attack. The maintenance guy that bowls over my snow pile and wrecks my path for the tenants to the garbage bin with his massive work truck.... fucking douche bag, I shoveled a place for him to park, asshole.
So before going any further in my day I decide I best check whats happening in the stars before I plan my course of attack on the world that is apparently going to retaliate my hostilities. And well wasn't I smitten when I read page after page of all the planets in conjunctions today.
Whew! What does that mean? It means that all you bitches are feeling this anger too! And if your not its because you live in a bliss bubble and I am envious of your disconnectedness.
This is why i love astrology so much. I had the feelings before the information. it was nothing more then validation. A good program does not create feelings in you, it validates what you already are experiencing thus giving you the power to handle your emotions and thoughts more appropriately. After thirty years of study on emotions and trauma and the power of our thoughts I have time and time again came back to astrology being the only true practice for guidance in my life.
Once a person understands there emotional make up and the direction the planets are going to move their lives in and the expereinces they are destined to have, life becomes very easy and free flowing. Some people are already tapped and dont need to dig, but for those of us that need the validation and guidance to become their full potentials this is for sure the most solid path to take there.
So now even though my anger has settled because i understand the larger picture (Virgo's got lost in details sometimes) I can go about my day picking my battles wisely because it is a day to clear air if needed but mostly its about laying low and allowing the insults to flow right off ones back.
It's a thickening of the Skin kinda day, So pamper yourself accordingly!!
Wow Change is surely in the air for me.
I have been restless for many months and I have been tossing and turning between following a path in healing or following a path in metaphysics. Leaning towards healing but I think completely missing the larger picture of how much the other path is just another path for those wanting healing. All Paths are Healing. If thats my only focus, well thats kinda silly right?
I should be looking more at what makes me truly happy, what I could feel passionate about learning and what can give me the clearest path to my ultimate goals. Right?
Well, I am changing directions again.
I have been so focused on hypnotherapy, but after doing some research on accreditation, I just cant see the fight for that path a beneficial one for me. Way too many years of school as well as a trained way of thinking I am not eager to take on again. There are too many hoops for me to jump through that would not ending up srving my end goals. So i must let this dream go. It's not working out like I had hoped. At least let it go for now anyways, maybe after I have established myself I can revisit the mindfalling program but for now its another path that I choose.
Funny that my astrology reports for this month are astonishingly about these changes, for which I did not see in amidst my confusion of why my life is not moving right now. Funny again that astrology is always there for me. funny how i always choose this as my go to when any life problem hits mysefrl or a friend. Funny is it?
My astrological advice this month was to follow my passion and to pick a path and jump on it. Its truly the advice for all people december of 2017. for most people you have been gearing up for this change all year, for some of us we have been kicking and screaming in the fight agaisnt it. So what is it I am truly passionate about? What is it that I have been studying since a kid? Astrology?
Thats the path I would choose instead, that of astrology.
Its my metaphysical passion and always has been but more then that its a science that has proved itself over and over again in my life, after countless educational pursuits and courses and programs and books failed to uphold their guidance, astrology since the beginning of time has.
All of our ancient texts are based on astrological movements in the sky. We all have wished upon a star and we all know a little bit about astrology signs. So it's a door already opened. An ancient text of study that would fascinate me and ignite a passion to sell it even more. An avenue to establish me into a position that I could then launch mindfalling. It will be through the base of astrology that I can dive much more deeper into the shamans healing as the world progresses along side.
As I have moved back into the service industry I am wildly aware of how much people still live in bubbles of bliss, which is amazingly good and shockingly timely for me.... we really do change at a snails pace on our own. I guess its why I am never sad for a person who hits a major snag in life, because its only at those times that we can really make some massive change fast.
Like whats happening for me in my astrological charts right now. The Big Mid-life Crisis! Everything is shifting and moving so fast and truly has been for over a year now. I know I am working towards going back to University to be a bachelors of Commerce locking into a healing profession or an astrological one is a pretty big deal at my age. I dont have the luxury for do overs now.... this is my do over!
So for those of you that have been following me, I am pulling mindfalling. I am pulling Brandy Brost consulting. It was a vision I had when I was on a different path with different support. I understand so deeply now how what I choose to do must depend solely on my own support. So Astrology and something I believe in is the way for me.
I am looking forward to ripping this site apart now and recreating it into what I really want to be.... which has always been....
How easy is it for us to get knocked off our priorities?
I find I am always on this little circle of cycles when it comes to staying on task and true to my goals and plans. Summer hits and I tend to lose entire focus on my goals and allow the summer carefree energy to take me for a stroll in nature...... for Five weeks! Damn them Faries!
How hard is it to get back on track?
Sometimes I have to admit when I need help getting back to my priorities. Mentors have always been great in my past with quick re tracking. Having a program like Jenny Craig, for which I am on right now, helps get things into perspective for those wanting to feel better quickly. To much summer sun and not enough eating properly.
Priorities. I am again on this path of redefining my priorities. This I am learning is surely an ongoing assignment as life shifts and changes beneath you. I am coming back to my center and am seeing that my priorities are shifting again as well.
How do you know what a priority even is really? Is it the same as a responsibility? Like my kid is my responsibility so therefor, a priority as well, but whats if my kid is older and takes care of herself is she still therefor a priority? Still a responsibility but any longer the priority?
I am redefining what it looks like for me through my feelings to be on task with my priorities more then my responsibility's. Like take for instance my love of my Jeep.... I am a jeep owner by the way and truly it hasn't been a lifetime enthusiast thing, nope this puppy popped up on me and i fell in love with all things jeep and wheeling... but this hobby is expensive stuff. I got an extra job serving just to pay for my love of the jeep.
So aside for taking care of my kid, it is also high priority to keep the love of my life in it as well so that means making good money to support my Jeep habit.
These are the beginnings of my priorities. The Jeep, My Kid, so therefore My serving Job and my care taking position rise up before any personal business of mine.
When I decided to go back to work so I could raise the funds needed to launch my business I knew there was a potential to get lost in that world again. Been there, done that, its super comfortable easy to get kinda lost......you know the kinda thing, right?. But here I am pushing forward, not by choice but by forced running from the wolves.
I got comfortable and I lost sight of my priorities. Even deeper then the Jeep is my desire to own my own business. This is what I bought the Jeep for in the first place, I just had no idea how much more it would give me. So that was the first shift in priorities.
But now that I am working, more and more money keeps coming to me as this is the law of attraction... everything just keeps growing. So now I can afford to put myself back through school and get my Bachelors in Commerce and do my business up the right way.
So now my vision has broadened.
I am responsible to hold on to that jeep and my kid. Both my responsibility's fold into my priorities of keeping my serving job and my care taking job. So going to school cannot take away from those two or my foundation gets shaky again. This is why i come here today is to lay out a foundation of priorities to rise up as many steps as we can.
To fix my jeep and invest good money there increases my happiness factor and thus my energy. It really boils down to having enough energy in the day. This is why I started jenny Craig again, I need personal energy to get my brain in top form and the rest of my bodies muscles as well. So the investment into jenny food is Priority for at least three months. These are steps I must take so my priorities have to be these two for the next month or so.
Moving beyond, school is next priority but it might not happen as quick as i had hoped but this buys me time to really look into all my paths and choices with my new understanding of my finances. So time spent on this website and online looking into different avenues to increased knowledge in all business related fields. That makes my business Fun again! It sucked trying to get customers when you have limited resources. So now I am getting resources!!
And My Kitty.
He is pretty epic at keeping me grounded and deeply rooted in Love. Where I once thought I needed a romantic partner to keep me grounded I am now seeing I was wrong and truly you need to be really grounded to actually achieve the right partner anyways. So yay kitty priority number three.... which is what will keep me home to work on my business because let me tell you, even though i love it and its my biggest passion, it for sure is the one that takes the most work to keep going. (aha life lesson moment for me. probably why i am still single)
So breaking down priorities and why they are important to you is the best way to deal with shifting foundations. And truly shifting foundations are the only way one can get ahead and stay moving froward, with little risk of getting hung up again and having to go back to square one to get moving again. Rest, but keep moving.
Speaking of rest, I shall break up this duty with some tidying of my apartment, funny this was my rest moment. Means its a good day!
Take care my Friend.