I have been playing D&D with a group from my serving job for a few weeks now. Being entirely new at this whole world of role play, I am naturally lost as fuck. And my DM knows it. He Destroys me on the daily, or comes close enough, so to let me know he can destroy, but would rather toy with my beating heart in his hands for a few turns before my team mates rise up to save my ass... again.
Hi, I am Surina KenfenKanBraden, the 9th Born from the 9th generation of Pure Bread, Dragon Born, Palidins.
I come from a secluded community up the mountains of Brama. Where, we are people of the purest bloods and, the strongest gifts, because of it. We have created a self sustaining, perfect race, of Dragon Borns, and this is why I am being sent away, out into the world. Purebreads. The time has come to spread the gospel of being a Purebread. It is time to get strong again as Nations, Pure Nations, United together, so that we may save this world from it's Evil of Cross Contamination.
So, being the 9th born and All, I am the strongest warrior we have, so natuarally I was the one to be sent out on this Fantastic quest! I was sent to Pixie Dust of course, the best place for a warrior to begin thier fight against evil! And the place where I would naturally carry out my Oath of Devotion, when the time came.
But now that I am here........
I am not sure I am in the right place.
I didn't realize it would be this hard.
I would like to start off this post by saying, 'I apologize if I come off as arrogant, self riotous or a know it all'. It is never my intention to be those things but I have been enlightened recently that, indeed, I can very much come off that way.
Of course as soon as I am enlightened about something like that, I have to run to my Astrological Natal Chart to find out where in my personality that is and how do I fix it. I really do love fixing my personality and of course, even more so, other people.
So please, know that I have been coming out of an overwhelming patch that has brought out the darker sides of my nature and I am not proud of that, but understand it is part of our existence.
I am always on about allowing all my feelings to flow, so this fits with that to some degree. However I have been getting a little more mature these days and recognize fully when to hold my tongue because being an asshole for the sake of being an asshole is not okay. Being taken as an asshole because you were protecting yourself in a healthy way and guiding another in the process is acceptable. Do you see the difference? Its' a fine line surely.
Also forgive me if I offend you with my videos because I put you down or say something racy. I will learn to get better with my words and phrasing things properly, but for now I am letting her all fly. So grab a hold for an exciting ride if you wish!! I am told my reality is not quite right, that makes it fun right??
I had a great Psychologist once advise me to find something to Study. To find a course, class or book, that I can dive head first into. Something to fully engage my mind, to create new pathways within my old tired Brain.
Why did she advise this of me? Because i was so deeply lost in my feelings that i could not see the light in my life. I was drowning in emotions and I wanted to Die because of it.
How many times since that advice was imparted on me have I found myself in a similar situation where I could not see the light through my feelings? Too many to count, thats for sure.
Logic has been the way of our society. Logic cuts out our feelings and allows us to co-exist with other humans that are suppressing their feelings as well. I no longer have any desire to suppress my feelings, but i sure do need a way to direct them when they get overwhelming.
Thats where the advice of my most favorite psychologist comes into play. Study she said. So study i do.
There is absolutely no downside to learning something new and creating new Nero pathways in your brain. It is actually the only way to change patterns in your everyday life. We all function from our brains and our brains have all been wired in certain ways. You want to change the way you react to situations you change the way your brain fires.
Study something new to begin a new way of thinking. If what your learning does not create passion then try something else, because the more feeling you can direct into your studies the more you will fire your brain up in a new direction.
Rewire and refire your emotions!! Learn something NEW!
Good Morning Bitches and Babes!
I think, truly believe, this will be my last post on all things addiction and obsession.
I am coming out of a 9 year cycle as many of us are, because as a collective we travel cycles together, so many of you will be able to identify with letting something major go in your own lives at this time.
I am letting go of my Obsessive nature.
All things can change within us, when we put in the work to do so. It's to bad many people just don't have what it takes to do the real hard work... makes me sad actually because this world would be a better place if we all had a higher level of self awareness. But let me not digress or get self-riotous, flaws I still posses :(
This vlog made it here as the last one did to close off a cycle for me and give it the power it needs to burn out in the atmosphere. I am looking forward to a new cycle and a new life free from the things that once had me bound in chains.
Fuck life is good on this side of Freedom!! So glad to be here today (not like yesterday)!!